how to love

dear friends,

Love is real; what is pure love?

My belly is full; full and content. Four years with Arabella, my girlfriend. We ponder many 东西 together. I wholeheartedly believe I feel pure love, at least, I come close. Love is a choice, after all.

Who am I to be wise, spouting as if I know what pure love is?

I have not been married, yet, I can see glimpses of wisdom thru the eyes and lives of those that came before. Arabella's grandparents, how their eyes have grown so wise! Wonder still alive; do memories shape the soul?

Love takes time, Time takes our love away; we must protect our Love, 'timeless!' I say. Do not grow bitter; sweet, love should be. Not always euphoric; mundane-eudaemonic, makes it all worth it. Between East/West, there lies the key to the Gateless Gate; there is no key! The rivers blend, like islands in the stream (that is what we are!). One can dream; the dream is real. Love is a dream, yet, very real.

Here I am, listening to the style of truth carved within the soul; what style of soul do you bring to the fold (what resonates)?

I beg you to listen to the solace in your eyes; solace in your grace. Retain your spirit, retain your soul. 来来来, lie lie lie; we try to learn the truth, to come into an awareness, we try. What a dunce we become; old age takes us, deterring the youth of once was. We age for wisdom, yet, wisdom flees us as time takes flight, tempus fugit. There's no way to keep us, to keep our sight as we grow blind of age. No sage can save you, no rage can lead you, to a saving grace. Love with grace, I say. 'Who is grace?' "Wh(y)- wise is grace; the wise have grace" a whisper heard, embraced.

I wish to keep up, to your pace, my love.

your friend(ly) jakester

Aim & Intent: to share the lessons from my experience, highlight timeless lessons from those wiser such as Thich Nhat Hanh; noetic love, a direct encounter to pure love and awareness?

[(Love x Awareness) x Relationships] / Awareness = [???]

Essence is Existence; “Deus Sive Natura”; ‘God is Nature…?’ spindled Spinoza.

plz go watch; Spinoza's God and Nöesis explained in (16 minutes or less)! as I depart from Taiwan once again with Spike and new friend Freg ;p

When to move and when to be still. When to act and when to listen. When to have timing and when to have time. Where is when? (When is where?) Considerations must be considered. How do you know what to consider?

There’s a time and place for all things. Timing is not always great. Time in beats time out. Timing helps increase presence, especially when it comes to love and war. The cadence and rhythm of the heartbeat drums a certain delicacy; of when to add gas and of when to lie flat. Have patience in both pursuits; between mind and soul.

The heart binds two together when the eyes see red. When the eyes are blind and when the head detaches. Detachment is not ignorance. True detachment is to feel fully. Let go of the head to feel the heart fully?!

Detachment ≠ Removal (in the case of love and awareness)

To appear strong or to appear weak when you are strong and when you are weak; The Art of Love. You are nothing in comparison to the powers that be. Deus Sive Natura. Surrender and you will find freedom. Surrender and you will open your heart; heartbreak. Find grace; don’t misplace. Understanding leads to freedom. Be free bird!

Be honest; true love, be skillful in your words, poetic. To make every word count; every arrow count, every shot count like a moving archer.

There is a certain subversion when it comes to love and awareness. It’s subtle and nuanced. Yet, love needs a sense of raw compassionate honesty. Be clear with yourself, with your intentions. It will appear in your projections, of what is in your core. Remember, time in beats time out; time is a double pendulum constantly oscillating, swinging to and fro. Where is time? Who knows?

Be aware of when your pendulum swings; Be aware of where your pendulum goes! “Beware the Head!” the foreign signs say to me. Do you listen to your pendant whom sings ‘Thy kingdom come?’

When to add gas; when to lie flat. When to pray; when to meditate. As above, so below; To go within, to go without. Order and chaos. Structure and flow. Between East and West. The Love will grow. 东西

Between the bobcat and bird, we came across this quote as we entered into the Taipei Zoo, right before the pandas. How resonant a phrase! It remained with me through the day as we walked thru this wondrous world of monkeys, flamingos, elephants, and color [foretold in the pink pocket notebook]. Colors of the anima; animus animated in time thru space. Colors to witness, of the eye and soul, in nature.

The spirits, they watch us!

How auspicious I have become over the years! I can feel it in the wind of Taiwan, of the air that enters within me, the spirit. It animates me, making my heart sing. Flowers of the wind, mahjong.

心灵; heart, soul, spirit

1 bright; 2 smart; 3 quick-witted; 4 heart; 5 thoughts; 6 spirit

To love is to see spirit; to see light, heart, and soul; quick-witted. Do you see the colors in sign, in symbol, in signal?

It’s all in motion, life is, moving still, motion picture, movie. Life is a movie? No, life has always been moving; it’s us who try to capture life with our eyes, still. To capture motion within our lives.

It’s in our nature to love.

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关系; relationships, we bind together. Religare; to bind, binded by bonds, bonded by binds; connected. In relation to what is, to God, to self, to spirit.

These bonds we carry, they bind us together, interconnected. Bond by love, by money, by care. By need of one another?

Howeverso, I go! Nonetheless, we flow.

I like to keep (and never spend) money given to me in 红包 [hóngbāo], auspicious I have become; perhaps I was always so auspicious and superstitious, suspicious of something greater. There is a certain spirit handed down from the elders, as if the money carried with it a certain wisdom and life. It carries a story of those that came before, the hands of which touched this red envelop, packaged with love, care, and well wishes towards the future. Good fortune, I try to hold onto within our relationships, within these prayers and foretold thoughts. To hold onto this love and care through intention and grace. Carved within our patient natures.

Auntie, she seems to see spirits. In her screams, she tries to ward them off. She carries kind eyes; stern, attentive eyes. She stares into you as if she could see through the two windows, down to your soul. You smile, hoping to lift her spirits. Sometimes, she smiles and giggles back. Sometimes she continues this stern, attentive look, looking away and looking right back. 'What does she see?' you wonder to yourself. Does she see my 心灵；my heart, soul, spirit?

One day, we may have to take care of Auntie. A child trapped within her body, difficult to navigate life without care, without these familial bonds. As we grow old, Uncle and Grandma showed how easy we take for granted our basic motor functions. As we grow old, we grow more dependent on one another, to let love flow as it has flowed through us. We must care and love one another, a decision we encounter. To take care of one another, thru sickness and old age. Interconnected, we cannot live alone, depending on each other to love. The bonds we carry, through blood, through marriage, through love and spirit.

‘It is within our fate to be loved and forgotten!’ speaks amor fati. To love and forget, what remains; what remains within your awareness and relationships?

We have love because we are aware; we are aware because we have love.

Love is awareness; awareness is love. Love is understanding; understanding is love. How do we approach Pure Love?

Love leads to awareness; awareness leads to love. Love leads to understanding; understanding leads to love. To know others, you must know yourself; to love others, you must love yourself. To forget others, you must forget yourself; to forgive others, you must forgive yourself.

Sacred blankness; a blankness of thought, pure awareness. Noetic love; noesis. Essence is existence; to experience pure love in its pure essence where one's experience, one's existence collapses with the essence of love. The barrier of is is released, unencumbered by no no veil; veil of self removed.

Direct encounter; to encounter others fully, you must encounter yourself fully, without hindrance nor guard.

To fully let go and let come, the essence of prayer and meditation; meditative prayer. The act of forgetting oneself. To come into contact with the subconscious thru submission, submergence, subversion. The version of self remaining thru time and space; timeless. How can you forget?

[remove sub] Mission, (e)mergence, version; conscious.

How does forgetting oneself lead you to the self?

Forgetting is a bit misleading. It’s not necessarily forgetting, rather, releasing the barriers of connection; interconnection, interbeing.

To enter the inter; the in between of what is and of what you are. To break the illusion that we are apart, pathetic, and broken. To enter and be with true love and awareness. Allow love to flow, howeverso, the form will show. Yet, when you try to wrap awareness, the sense of what is goes. This nature, it cannot be tamed, this primordial heart, soul, spirit.

"Merely because consciousness is but a deluded state of primordial awareness."

A direct encounter of what is, of God? God is nature. God is love. Love is nature.

You cannot contain it, this love. You must let it pass through your awareness, towards your relationships to others, to the world, and to what is beyond. When you try to draw the lines, it becomes fuzzy, and the labels you try to convene with dissipate. You will speak as if you are foolish, but sit with it, of what is unknown. There is no need to rush to the finish. In your love, in your awareness, and in your relationships.

When you find patience, you find peace. You find grace to walk in pace. Finding pace within your grace helps you lead with love within your awareness. It allows you to have a greater awareness.

Through this awareness, you may have a better grasp of the shape of mind; the shape of soul. With a better grasp, you may see how these shapes fit together; to see the nuance in the presence of others. To be more skillful in how you love. Break the barriers to find the bids of connection.

When you lack love, you lack understanding. When you lack understanding, you lack love. Love is graceful, requiring skill, time, and pace.

Pace. Pace and grace. Pace of grace. Pocket ace. Win the race; what race? Win the race before race begins. Pocket ace; pace with grace. Grace.

I am a witness to calm indifference. It’s cold, I wish it to stop. Tears run, reminding me of love. I come into an awareness with love. These tears make all the difference. Trust in the promise, no wager. I trust in the promise, the faith I carry in heart, patiently stubborn. Stubbornly patient?

A witness, no different. A witness, no difference. We are no different, To a monkey’s wit.

Nõesis (highest form of intuition) allows us to penetrate into pure love and awareness. A noetic thought! What is love; where does true love emerge?

Do we create what we search for by creating the search itself? Do we find what we look for by looking for it; by the act of looking for it?

“You do not find the thing. You become it by looking.”

“We do not find reality untouched. We find reality through the lens of our asking.”

“Some things are found by looking. Others are found by stopping the look.”

加油；躺平。

The act of inquiry; the act of love, the act to forget, to clear and to forgive. Be compassionate in how you love, be patient in this pursuit. To carry true presence, true resonance in your love. The wisdom on when to add gas and on when to lie flat.