find the resolve.

dear friends,

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find the resolve.

your friend(ly)

jakester

P.S. this letter took me 20+ days to percolate; plz (en)joy to the best you can and I thank you for waiting... :p (we are at 50 subscribers!)

Aim: may luck and inspiration guide the path ahead; the importance of certitude with the power of inquiry and vision! The mastery of mind; mega-mind ;p

You must have resolve. Without resolve, what are we to do?

You lack the spirit. You lack the faith. You lack the force to move. Why can't you move forward? Why can you not take the step?

The endlessness, it takes, chipping away of what is. How treacherous the journey, you stare, down to the depths, taking pieces. It takes and takes, yet, you hold on, in each breath. Constant flux; redox, the flow of life in constant disequilibrium. What are you holding on to? What are you taking? Where do you go?

Here I am; I am here. Life desires order. We desire order within our reflection. To order our surroundings, our love, our fate, of what is. Is this Love? This interconnection of all matter... Why does it matter; Love as necessity?

An orderly love? Must we have love to live? A pure awareness? An understanding? To love freely. To have a choice in the matter in our practice of love. Resolved.

I want to be the freest person I can be. In all possibilities. It's not that I want to prove anyone wrong. It's that I want to prove myself right. Yet, even within this jest, within my own desire, detracts the freedom I seek. This desire, to be free from freedom itself is slippery. What (why) must I prove myself, to prove worth?

There may well be no point in the matter, an uncomfortable absurdity, blatantly concealed cruxfully. Must there be a purpose to it all (a dangerous question)?

I must live; an autotelic pursuit, a self proving its own existence is but worth a damn; an expression of form unfolding must be set. To live with love. Love, a form of expression. A true understanding of what is?

The most important matter of human existence is found within our essence. Essence is existence; a bridge to meaning. Cat and mouse, flee or pursuit?

God as witness; I am no judge to determine between the living and the dead. 'What is living?' I wonder, 'are you living?'

I am 'jest' lucky.

I have played my hand right. I have waited for this position. Through persistence and patience. I waited for the time to strike. Then, lighting struck. Was it just luck?

Yes and no, of course. Am I deserving of this opportunity, this life, these blessings that come my way. Yes and no. I must believe I am worthy, to seize these opportunities. It is subjective, yes. Most worth is subjective. What is true worth? What is true luck? Who knows?

Focus on what matters; the spirits are watching. The spirit of luck; how fortunate am I? 'I am very fortunate,' the fortune cookie tells me. Speak to the spirits, yes; but, listen. Listen when they speak!

"You speak, I'll listen" the old wise man told me. 'How far does your luck go?' the young boy folds tea. "As far as you believe it to be," the wise old cracks back. 'What does that mean?' restless, the boy cries in attack. "In whatever you wish it to mean!" laughs the wise old man. 'Don't bullshit me you old crack, tell me what is luck?' "You grow impatient, I see. How lucky for me to see your anger." 'What does luck mean to you?' "Luck; patience and persistence." 'Patience and persistence.' "Be more compassionate, young friend. I see you suffer." 'I understand, old man. How do I remove this suffering?' "Persist with patience. Pursue life itself. With love and grace. Pace with grace. Do not haste. Pray your journey be a long one and abide to that which is unchanging..." 'What is unchanging?' ".... a conversation for another day." finally remarked the old grinning face with wrinkles that made you twinkle. A good soul, he was.

Let luck itself breathe through you. How lucky we are to be able to question the Universe. The greatest gift the Universe has to offer is the examination of itself. Is that luck? 'Only time will tell, but Time is a liar and a thief; do you trust Time?'

I can feel the affects of not writing. Yet, the space is nice. To give myself space to breathe; mindspace. Membrane of mindfulness, skin. Mindfulness and awareness is the layer of compassion that allows you to protect the self. To lower the suffering of others. Compassion is the membrane. The gateless gate. Does it await?

This year has felt like a year. Fast and slow; ever-flowing. An opportunity has presented itself to me at the Summit. An opportunity I have been pursuing since 2024. My dreams, they woke me up at 12:36AM and I could not sleep a wink since then. The excitement, it makes me tingle. I feel nervous. I feel every nerve. There moving, in constant flux, redox!

2025 was the Year of RESONANCE for Jake Ochave (me). 2026 is the Year of RESOLVE. Jake will have resolve. I will have resolve. Who am I?

'I am lucky.'

Faith precedes understanding. You must have the resolve to have belief, to have faith, to trust your mind can be trusted. Be worthy; you are worthy of living the dream, your dream.

If energy cannot be created nor destroyed, then life cannot be created nor destroyed. In all possible worlds, is there a world where life does not exist?

For a world to exist, it requires energy to be put into motion…

Without energy in motion, there is no world, no Universe. How would there be no Universe? How would there be non-existence?

If energy can neither be created nor destroyed, how did the Universe come to be? Must nature exist? Is nature inevitable? The nature of the Universe? What is inevitable in all possible worlds? What is universal and true in possible existences?

We hunger for food; the purpose of hunger is to consume and survive. We hunger for an answer; the purpose of hunger is to inquire and survive.

How does an intelligent animate thing come from an unintelligent inanimate thing?

For intelligent life to form, must it come from another form of intelligence? How would the Universe come from absolute nothingness?

~

the cool stuff is happening in 'negative' space. the cool stuff is occurring in 'negative' space. the cool 'magic' is placed in 'negative' space.

the unseen space is negative space; always incomplete (wholly incomplete). we are never purely complete. in the hole, become whole.

"stop reading the lines" "start reading the gaps."

God is in the gaps; the Devil is in the details.

what's changing in your 'negative' space?what shape is forming there that the old 'you' didn't have?the process of integration and disintegration?

dissolved resolved; the remaining remnants of time and space. stitch it together, you iron giant!

ironic how the best thoughts are the ones unthought; non-thought and non-existence, non-essence... does true absolute 'nothingness' ever exist in time or space?